Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Back to the Nest!

I started my day of playing hooky from work with a chat with my mom from my favorite coffee shop here. I felt like such an American, sipping a cappuccino and utilizing the latest technology to FaceTime with my mom halfway across the world. I then went to visit the Nest. I was surprised at how many new faces I saw. There are a few new volunteers, two from Canada and two from Germany, as well as a bunch of new children. I wasn't able to meet all of them personally, but it's apparent that some things have changed in the past two months. That being said, I was roped into doing the same jobs that I did when I was a volunteer. I was momentarily transported into the past while I hung laundry and washed dishes. Some things haven't changed.

After a few hours of saying hello and chipping in to do some work, I took the long walk to visit Elizabeth at her home one more time. There was lots of walking done today, but it was worth it. I'm not bitter about the walking part. I'm really just bitter about the matatu element of my day, but I won't get into that now. Elizabeth and I chatted for a few hours. She was impressed in how much my Swahili ability has improved. What I didn't tell her is that I've been cheating by reading a swahili book to supplement my personal lessons from friends.
I remembered to bring my camera this time, so I got a few pictures of the view from Elizabeth's house.

Surprisingly the matatu ride didn't keep my from making it home in time for Ben's 8th grade graduation this evening. The ceremony was complete with the Kenyan National Anthem and a choir of Maasai warriors.

She really doesn't like me taking her picture




Monday, May 27, 2013

A Second Dedicated to Reflection

Here I am, one week to go, sitting in the office, pondering my reason for existence and life thus far. What I've concluded is that perception contributes a large amount (I'm not going to give you an actual figure, but it's in the 50-70 area) to a given situation. There are two ways I could view my "journey" after returning home. Webster's dictionary defines the word journey as traveling from one place to another. However, a journey implies that a considerable amount of work must be had in order to reach said destination. Let's be honest, the preparation and planing that goes into a trip like this makes me able to justify calling this "trip" a "journey." So, I can either view my journey as just that. Traveling from one PHYSICAL place to another PHYSICAL place, no doubt about it, is exactly what I have done, but I would be leaving out a huge piece of the puzzle if I didn't take into account everything about this trip that was non-physical. What I mean is, the two ways of viewing my travels is by all of the THINGS I saw, all of the THINGS I did, or by all of the places I went emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically.
As I've stated before, I am only one girl, I can't make waves of impact wash over Kenya, but I can create ripples. Now that I have a taste of African culture I have the ability and, frankly the responsibility, to support Kenyans. I can't expect myself to solve poverty and hunger. Not only is that over ambitious and unrealistic, it's not my job. It is up to Kenyans to develop and build their country. The ball started rolling a while ago. I've gotten to see Kenyans at work, helping other Kenyans and their country move in a strong direction. I've been lucky enough to find these organizations then jump on the wagon and do what I can to help.
So instead of thinking about all the lives I've touched, I am reflecting on all of the lives that have touched mine. I'm thinking about all the people that extended their hand to meet mine halfway. It wouldn't be easy to remember my time in Kenya as a bad experience, but just to strengthen the fact that this may have been one of the most enlightening experiences of my life so far, I'm compiling a list of highlights. Summarizing my "non-academic studies" into a few pages of memories. I will forever remember this trip as taking a leap of faith, and continuing to doing so.
A few months ago, as I wrote my college essays I used the term "non-academic studies" to describe my travels and gap year. At the time it felt a little like BS, because what did I know about learning from the world. It would be fair to say that I feel a bit different now as far as non-academic studies go.
I had planned to fill my last week in Kenya with more exciting adventures, but I found that someone had already done that for me. In case you were wondering, that someone was me over the past few months just by keeping myself busy. My schedule filled up without me even realizing it. Funny how the hours in the day seem to contract as days become fewer. There is little time left to reflect. That's okay with me. I'll have plenty of time to reflect during the 32 hour plane ride home. I am still wondering what readjusting to life in the US will be like. I'll have plenty of time to chew on that too.
For those of you who are reading this blog, I plan to continue writing after I get home and go off to college. Mostly for me. Hopefully, as the years go by I'll be able to fill up these pages with stories of many more travels.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Sarakasi and More

Some days really just suck. I've had my fair share of really crappy days, but then again, I've had some pretty stellar ones too. The funny thing is, a lot of the time, the days that turn out the best don't start out that way. For example, I woke up last Wednesday pissed off. My hair wasn't doing what I wanted. My stomach was grumbling from something I ate. I had slept in. I wasn't excited about the prospect of getting out of bed and going to work. When I finally did get out of the house, I hit a wall. For some reason, the daily expedition of finding a matatu and making my way to town was more grueling than usual. The Matatu stopped what felt like every 3 meters to pick up another passenger. Walking to the dome I ran into just about every shoulder and clipped every bump in the road with my toe. To say the least, my day was not getting off on a bright start. It was just one of those days that REALLY SUCK. Or so I thought. Once I finally arrived at the Sarakasi Dome, my place of "occupation," I was faced with a big shiny smile from the security guard, the one who always remembers my name and chats me up as I sign in. Thank goodness for people like him. I don't know how my day wouldn't have turned out if it wasn't for that short, though sometimes extensive, conversation. Was I destined to have a bad day and he just flipped destiny on its head, or was it all just chance? Needless to say, after that, the matatu ride home didn't seem so awful. The afternoons countless remarks of 'Hey! Sister, come over here and look at what I'm selling," warranted by my pale skin didn't have the exhausting impact that they had that morning. What I needed was for someone to remind me that the world is actually a fairly decent place to live in. It's funny how often we forget that. I know I'm not the only one who gets upset at little things like the matatu driver ripping me off for ten bob when what I really should be focusing on is the fact that I'm the only muzungu in the entire community of Kangemi, especially riding in a matatu. The little accomplishments are sometimes forgotten. I will never complain about the Portland public transportation again with it's strict schedules and set fare after riding on a matatu. Another small accomplishment is the extent of my Swahili. I bought eggs at the duka down the road aaaaaaall in Kiswahili. I don't need any praise or recognition. I'm already am pretty pleased with myself. Just a little bit of practice every day is what I need. Ruth is a big help. I'll come home in the afternoons and ask her "what does ____ mean?" "How do you say_____ in Swahili?" And I take notes. She thinks I'm a msichana wazimu, a "crazy girl."I've learned most of the barnyard animals like cow - ng'ombe, and chicken -kuku, and goat-mbuzi, and sheep-kondoo, so basically I'm prepared for anything. You never know when you might have to use such vocabulary words. I love learning new languages, but sometimes I get a little in over my head. A problem arises when I try to practice too many new languages at once. Yesterday for instance, I was looking through my norwegian notes, which really mean I was talking to myself in patchy Norwegian, and got stuck on the word "to go." I just couldn't for the life of me remember the word. I thought of both the Spanish word and the Kiswahili word before I came up with the word in Norwegian. Not cool, brain.
After that, not-so-perfect day I mentioned before, came a few great days. I went to see Iron man Thursday night with a few Peace Corps friends. It was nice to take a break and do something familiar. As always, Iron Man was the bomb. I'm a huge super hero movie fan, like my dad, and couldn't wait until I got home to see this one. The next night I went out again with those crazy PCVs. The night was complete with food, laughter and plenty of not-so-great choices. The next morning, I managed to get up early despite my late night before and took the dogs on a hike in the nearby Karura Forest. That was a bit of a headache since those two are not used to walking on the leash, but with practice comes perfect. By the end of the walk they were a little more manageable from a combination of being used to the leash and just being dog tired.
The weekend was a nice break from the crazy hectic public transportation.
One of the really nice things about working at the Sarakasi Trust is that I hear Swahili all day everyday. I'm even getting some Luo and Kikuyu training in, go figure. I still think it's so funny that even if I don't speak more than 4 words of Swahili, most Kenyans go crazy. They're all really encouraging me to learn. Go to france I've heard, and you will not have the same experience. But I really can't say. Speaking of France. I was looking forward to squeezing in an hour or so to see Paris during my 5 hour layover on the way home, but if I'm thinking with my brain instead of my eyes, I have to be realistic; there is no way that's going to happen.
I realize I haven't explained what my Job at Sarakasi entails, nor what Sarakasi even is. So let me explain. I work for the creative department with the dancers and acrobats. There are 5 of us working in that office. Most of the staff there is or was a professional dancer once in their life, so you can imagine the intimidation factor. I've been invited to attend dance classes, and I'm warming up to the idea a bit. It couldn't hurt to get in shape. The Sarakasi trusts mission is to use culture and the fine arts to develop the culturally unstable parts of Kenya. They have projects around the community like visiting the slums, supporting hospitals, supporting local talent, etc. The dancers have a lot of local performances, but the acrobats have to look a little farther to find the experience they need and want. There isn't much desire for acrobatic acts and circus performances here in Kenya, so we have to look internationally. Aaaaaaand this is where we get to my job. The creative department is so busy that I've been taken on to exclusively, for now, look into different venues for our performers, especially the acrobats.
I am so impressed with the hard work that all these young people do. They practice monday through friday, sometimes weekends, for hours and hours. Reasonably so, they have a pretty hefty list of accomplishments. It may sound like I'm bragging, but these people are so dedicated, it would seem criminal to talk them up any less. Artists from all around Kenya come to hire the Sarakasi dancers for choreography and for music videos and such. I've met some big shots, the ironic thing is, I'm not up to date enough on Kenyan celebrities to know. Either they're impressed with my "professionalism," or insulted by my lack of awe, hopefully neither. Apparently one singer/songwriter big shot was impressed with something, because he later asked my boss for my number. Jokes on him! First of all, I ain't no arm candy, and second of all, I leave in two weeks. Oopsy. There is always something interesting going on at the Sarakasi dome. I am getting introduced to new music and a new side of Kenya that I hadn't before seen. Two weeks left isn't that long, but I can make the most of it.
As the days dwindle down, getting more and more torn. I really want some starbucks coffee (yes, I'm addicted,) but I really want to learn how to make all the Kenyan dishes before I leave. Can you see my dilemma?
That's all for now! Except for some kewl pictures.


 




Monday, May 13, 2013

Whisked away into the night

Really the only way to have a good day is to start with a positive outlook, which is something I can't claim to always have first thing in the morning. Today was one of those days that just worked out perfectly. I was able to meet a friend for coffee and still have time to make it to the Sarakasi dome at just the right time. The fates must have been in my favor. I didn't even get too much trouble from the matatu dudes. I might just be a capable human being after all.  Everyone keeps warning me about the bad people in the city who will take advantage of innocent white girls like me, but I have yet to meet my fair share. Everyone I met today was helpful. Anyway, I got home pretty road weary, but feeling very empowered, like I could do anything. Si se puede! My first official day at the Sarakasi dome went well. I have a specific schedule, specific duties, etc.

I think that was what my life was missing. Structure. Is it so bad that I need to have a schedule all the time? Probably, but after not having any routine or responsibilities for a while, it feels good to have something to work toward. I'd be a hypocrite after all those sessions of "goal-setting" and "decision-making" if I didn't have goals for myself. First step to setting goals, make realistic and achievable goals. I can't say how glad I am that I had few expectations (not low expectations; there's a difference) when I left for Kenya. Instead of wasting time being disappointed, I've spent a majority of the time being impressed and stimulated. For example, when training the puppies (News flash! We got puppies! More on that later...) when training the puppies, we have to have realistic expectations of their capabilities. They learn reaaaally fast but patience is still key. We're starting small, teaching them their names, which are Dobby and Bella, and the basics.

SO! Here's the story. Saturday morning, Aunt Lisa and I sat down to breakfast and I happened to ask about the puppies they had been waiting on from the KSPCA. They had visited a few weeks back when I was still out in Western. Lisa called just to inquire, with no hopes of them being ready already. Turns out they were. We all jumped in the car to battle the Karen traffic and arrived just before they closed. PUPPIES!!! It was a rough first car ride home, and first day in general for them. That was two days ago. They are really starting to warm up to us now. Understandable, they weren't too keen on the idea of picking up and moving to an unfamiliar house with unfamiliar people who wanted them to eat unfamiliar food and follow unfamiliar commands. That's been our excitement for the week. That and muzungu night out for me and a bunch of peace corps volunteers.

I hadn't been around so many Americans in quite a while, so it was a little overwhelming to hang out with the entire COS class of Peace Corps volunteers. They were here for their completion of service conference (hence the COS) and a got whisked along with them into the night.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Almost-the-weekend Update

Now that I've gotten all those pictures up, I can check one more item off my list. This week though not very busy, has been quite stressful! College is all straightened away, as far as I know. I just have to work on my scholarship hunt. Apparently there is a scholarship for keeping a blog. Lucky for me, I in fact, have a blog.

This post will most likely be cut shorter than some others. The reason being, I haven't had any real revelations lately. So I'll spare you a rant about eagles and other heart warming topics and just stick to facts for now. Don't worry; I'm sure I'll come up with something to lecture about in the coming week.

I visited the Sarakasi trust both tuesday and wednesday. Getting there isn't as much of a problem as I thought it would be, just a matatu ride away really, but getting home was quite an ordeal my first day. No matter how much I ride matatus and get comfortable with haggling for the correct fare, I'm always going to have to put up a fight. It's pretty exhausting.

As for Sarakasi, I spent most of the day watching dance rehearsal for their upcoming performance. My god, those people can dance. I can't even imagine what I would look like showing off my "white girl" dancing compared to them. If those who think dancing isn't a sport were in a room with the sarakasi dancers for less than an hour, they would most definitely have a change of heart. I think I became a better dancer just sitting in the same room as them. Most likely, I still look like a white girl, all elbows and neck, when I dance, but a girl can dream. Starting monday, I'll be handling a lot of paperwork and contracts for them. They go into the community, to schools and institutions, a lot to teach dance. There is an instructor, who graduated from Sarakasi, teaching at Sydney and Ben's school, for example.

On Wednesday, I did something I'd never done before. I went rock climbing for the first time. I don't know why I never had before, but it was exhilarating! I made it to the top 4 out of my 6 climbs. Not bad for a beginner, right? Needless to say, my upper body strength is not what it could be. My arms felt like lead on the way home and still do even today. Ben was a monkey boy. He climbed a wall that took him upside down so that he had to dangle by his arms for some time. I can't wait to go again. Maybe I'll wait until I'm not so sore.

That's all for now.
Less than a month left in Kenya! Not that I'm counting, but seriously, where did the time go?

More Pictures!!

I'm a bit behind on putting all these up. They're a little out of order, but I think they illustrate nicely what I was doing for the past month out west. The rock climbing wall was this week. So now were all up to date, I think.

 The boys practicing for their performance at church

 Writing on the wall




The skits to illustrate healthy relationships

They started getting a little weird 



By weird I mean, boys in skirts

The "dance crew" getting their groove on during our talent show 

 Our talent show winner, with his original poem spoken in his mother tongue
That's a goat 







My view from the porch in Eldoret





First climbing mountains, then climbing walls











Look at me goooooo!

Success 

Spider boy

Monday, May 6, 2013

Regrouping

What can I really say about the past few days. I wrapped up my short stay in Eldoret with a lesson. My lesson was directed toward the Parliament, the leaders of each of the children's homes. I spoke for about an hour and a half. The kids absolutely loved it! I was so surprised. I thought for sure I would get a bunch of blank stares but these kids were SO engaging, almost a little too rowdy. We had a nice discussion. At the end I welcomed any and all questions about my lesson, but it really turned into them asking questions about america and a few about the UK.
The ride back to Nairobi was a tiresome, and thankfully uneventful, one. It only took about 6 hours....
I don't understand some people's aversion to waiting in lines but for some reason, lines are not even a concept here. I was patiently waiting (in what I thought was a line) to purchase my ticket for the shuttle and some dude just pushed up in front of me and slapped his money down.
Now I'm back in Nairobi. Not too much has happened since my return but it is nice to regroup and have a day or two to just reflect on the past month. Everything happened so quickly I didn't have much of a chance to process everything.
Before I can get used to hanging out and "regrouping," I start working at the Sarakasi trust tomorrow. Yeee! Time to get to work, again!

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Insert Meaningful Title Here


Did you know that an eagle builds his nest in 9 layers? He starts with a layer of thorns followed by a layer of twigs, then more thorns. The 4th layer is made up of soft grass, then leaves and moss, then more thorns, grass, moss and finally his own downy feathers. Why does he build his nest this way? Well you see, an eagle lives in very high places like the side of a cliff or the top of a tall tree. The only place for a predator to ambush an eagle is from below. The outermost layer of the Nest is made with thorns. If you are a snake or a wild cat and you climb a tree in the hopes of catching a eaglet, you are going to be faced with a mouth full of thorns. The layers are for both protection and for nurturing, hence the soft grass and feathers.

The second reason for all the layers, especially the thorns, is that after the Eaglet has been born he has to learn how to fly. The papa eagle pushes his little fluffy baby eagle out of the nest. The baby falls aaaaaall the way down only to be saved by his father at the last second. The father continues this exercise while the baby eagle learns how to use his wings. Once papa eagle is sure his little baby can fly on its own he reveals the one last trick hidden up his sleeve. Baba eagle removes all of the comfortable soft squishy grass and moss and feathers from the nest until all that's left are thorns. He then sets his fuzzy little eagle child on the side of the nest and gives him a push. The Eaglet, now fully capable of flying by himself, jumps back into the nest, afraid of the outside world. What nasty surprise does he find upon reentering the nest? A bed full of thorns. Suddenly, whatever scary things the outside world might hold become favorable to the thorns inside. He then is forced to fly and soon finds, he wouldn't have it any other way.

We can learn quite a bit from nature. Another example. Eagles are the only birds that fly directly into a storm. The see a storm coming their way and they rejoice in it. While all the other chickens and pigeons are fleeing in fear of the heavy winds and rains, the eagle opens his wings and lets the incoming torrents lift him up above the clouds. There he can soar above the storm. Maybe he is the only bird big and strong enough to withstand the strong winds, by why should the eagle the only one? You would think other birds would see him and follow his example. This may sound extremely corny, but I'm an eagle, or at least I aspire to be one. If the Eagle can teach his own child to welcome the outside world and embrace his problems head on, then that is the example we should be following.
Right now I'm in Kenya, but that doesn't mean I don't have responsibilities back home. Hell, I have a ton of responsibilities in regards to school, work, friends, family, and being in Africa is no excuse for leaving those loose ends untied. I have just about a month before I come home. In this last month, I have a lot to accomplish. I've been across Kenya (not to the North, that might be another trip all together) and I've met so many great people. At the beginning of my trip, when homesickness was at it's most vicious, I figured I was a crazy person and couldn't believe I had done something as wild as picking up and going to Africa. Four months felt like a loooong time. I was kicking myself, considering cutting my trip short. I'll be completely honest, I didn't think I could do it. Looking back, I can't imagine spending any less time here. In fact, I'm kinda sad that my trip is more than halfway over. I'm excited for college, yes. I'm excited to have my job back this summer, yes. I'm excited to see my friends and family, of course. But Kenya will always have a piece of my heart (getting cheesy again) and that is something that is very difficult to explain. It is so hard to put all my feeling and experiences with a country into words. I know I'll get questions like "did you see a lion?" and "did you have to go to the bathroom in a hole in the ground?" but Africa is so much more than just seeing lions and all that. The reverse culture shock is what I'm most nervous about. I want to be able to talk to people about my experience, but without actually experiencing it with me, nobody can really relate. I have the feeling that I'm coming off as high and mighty, but that's not my intention. One can't simply describe Kenya. One has to see and smell and taste Kenya.

Another thing I admire about eagles is their acceptance of vulnerability. In an eagles life, he (or she) goes through a process of physically tearing  himself down. He pulls out his old and weak feathers. Breaks off his talons, and breaks his beak. It is a mess, and he is physically, and probably mentally, drained from the process. With time, however, new feathers, new talons and a new beak start to grow all stronger than the ones before. An eagle does away with weaknesses that hold him back to make room for the new and stronger characteristics that will take him farther. He wounds and makes herself vulnerable in the process, but is stronger and healthier as a result. Nature is not always pretty.

I was chatting the other day with the nurse here at Open Arms International in Eldoret. (That is where I've been staying since leaving Amagoro) and she was telling me about some of the work she's been doing. A lot of the problems Westerners face when coming to Africa is the feeling that their work isn't making a difference. Back home, when I was working at Starbucks, I could see the results of my labor every day. I saw people smiling because I remembered their order or asked them about their kids. I saw a paycheck in the mail that proved I worked a certain amount of time. Here the only result we see is long term. That isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it takes some getting used to. After two weeks of teaching, I started to notice the relationships I'd made with the students and how all of being and learning together had enriched everyone's lives. It is selfish really to expect to see change so quickly and really the reasons I've come to Africa are personal. So many organizations are put in place to give Westererns a taste of African culture and to make them feel like they've made a difference, but in reality, they foster the idea that the White man will come in to fix problems and throw his money around.

What I love about both Elewana and Open Arms is that they are building up the infrastructure of the culture by encouraging the people of the community to solve problems. Elewana is engaging and encouraging communities to support their students. Open Arms has a feeding program at a nearby slum that invites mothers to come and receive food for their children. Once the mothers arrive, they take health and education classes. Some have low levels of education and are informed at the same time as getting a warm meal in their kids bellies. The village, with it's 5+ children's homes, teaches the kids that though life in the village is comfortable, the outside world is not so soft and fuzzy. They teach the children job skills, landscaping, running a kiosk, cooking, building and other jobs that they could use to provide for themselves in the future. The future of Kenya starts with Kenyans.

Tom, the head of the hosting party, took me around the large compound yesterday. He showed my their dairy, shamba, water treatment area, guard dogs, school, and long term volunteer housing. They have a river down the hill which is very high and fast right now. They get all their water from the river by pumping it manually up to the top of the hill where it is treated and sent to the houses.

I like that everywhere I go, I get a different opinion on politics. Most Kenyans I've met glorify President Obama without knowing really much about him aside from his Kenyan roots. When I utter the word "American" most Kenyans think "Obama," and I instantly become a celebrity. Now this isn't to say all Kenyans think this way. I heard the refreshing opinion of a Kenyan who had done his research and told me exactly what about Obama's campaign and ideas he didn't agree with. Now, THAT is what I like to hear. A Kenyan who cares to read about a given topic then disputes it. Maybe I'm being too harsh. I know there are many many many Kenyans like that, I just haven't met too many of them yet. Maybe I'm just not giving them the chance to explain. In fact, I couldn't really claim creative thinking and discernment as my own before coming to Kenya. I think only after stressing the importance of creative and abstract thinking to others, I started to do so myself. I can say, "Kenyans need to think outside the box more!" as much as I want, but until I do so myself, I'm really just a hypocrite, aren't I? I am thankful for this trip not only because it has taught me to be appreciative of what I have - access to a good education, consistent electricity, a washing machine, two supportive parents, clean water that runs right out of the tap, a bathroom inside my house - but also because it has shown me the parts of myself that need to develop and grow.

Before heading back to Nairobi on Saturday, I'll lead a workshop here at Open Arms for some of the older kids. The workshop will stem off of the lecture I listened to yesterday about leadership and the habits of a certain bird of prey that was lead by two university students.

Though my stay here will be short, I have been introduced once again to a different perspective of Kenya. Yes, Kenya has traits that are consistent throughout the country, but it is also very diverse and differs wherever you go.

3 months down, one to go and I haven't even done anything dangerous or crazy. What's up with that? I was invited to go white water rafting the River Nile, but unfortunately (or maybe not so unfortunately) I couldn't attend the trip. When I get back to Nairobi I'll get a tattoo that says something like "I <3 Kenya" or "Jambo" or something wild like that to really complete my trip.

I realize this is a very long post. Feel free to skim. Most of this is just me ranting.
Until next time! XOXO